I woke up early this morning as I had to hand in an essay nothing special. Got there early and handed in the essay, was suppose to be meeting friends for coffee but as I was early no one was there. Sat around and waited, one by one they showed up and we went and had coffee. We sat we talked we had a laugh and I was in a good mood, happy go lucky all was right. I went shopping on the way home and got back in and chilled out.
That’s when it hit me.
I was just sat, reading odds and ends on the internet and felt this sudden annoyance rise up inside of me for no apparent reason. I started to get really irritable. Then started talking to my boyfriend and we got talking about a certain subject and it just started to piss me off and its something I wouldn’t normally let get to me and ever since I felt on the edge. Then I started watching a TV programme that was just even more annoying (a bunch of teenagers thinking they were vampire - the point when one kid said that Dracula was from New Zealand was too much).
And now I’m sat here typing this I can still feel this rage inside of me. You’re probably sat thinking big deal everyone gets pissed off, but not me I’m 99% of the time chillaxed, let things slide nothing gets to me, I could understand if something had been done or said to me to make me feel like this but no, nothing. My hands are shaking and my heart is pounding and its a strange feeling.
I don’t like it and will be glad when my body calms the fuck down but until then god forbid anyone who dares piss me off within the next few hours.
